RESET. RESTARTED. (:

this week....

2010-04-17T22:46:00.002+08:00

Hmm.... not much happen but still i'm happy this week but a little bit irritated. Said something stupid which i didn't realize and made the whole class laugh like mad.

Pn. Naza: What is the softest mineral in the world?

Everyone: (saying nonsense)

Pn. Naza: No...no... It starts with a T. And you use it after bathing.

Me: Ohh. I know. I know. (Class silent and look at me) TOWEL!

Pn. Naza: (laughs) Noo. Its talcum powder.

Its kinda embarrassing though. HAHAHAH! Teacher rushing with all the folio's man. I'm dying with KH and GEO.

Anyway, doing good doesn't pay because there's always a someone who doesn't appreciate people who help them. I promise not to help you anymore. That will be my last time. I forgive because its a small matter but i will never ever help you again. This wasn't the first time woman! Since form one, i guess there's no change in you. Next time if you're late i don't bother i'll keep my silence like what you did. But your mind was worse atleast i thought that you might be late or what, instead you jump to conclusion. Thanks alot. I wasted alot of time then.

And i don't get it. Game over means game over right? Like someone once told me before once its gone, its gone. I don't know whether i'm being sensitive or what but i felt that its you who ask someone to hint me or something? Maybe i'm just being sensitive cause you say you ask on your own accord. When talking bout her, i don't feel comfortable at all. Like what S say it have nothing to do with you. And guess what, we don't care how you say us. So what if you do better than us. You think we care? Are you like trying to show off or something? Compared to your many many years of experience, we started playing like 2 years ago only. Don't make yourself sound so great just because you're a better player. We're just newbies so shut your crap man. And i say don't judge a book by its cover. I never expected those words to come out from your mouth.

2010-04-09T21:25:00.003+08:00

Cheer up, bearbear! (:

Have two folio's to be done by one month time and another one in a few weeks time. How to finish it when exam is near the dateline? Mum have been pressing me to start studying and i'm trying hard to forget bout my afternoon sleeps and finish up all my homework. Today's cf meeting really speak through me. I know God won't leave me alone here. If sis didn't went for NS, she might be able to help me in something. I'm not feeling happy at all. Everyday i try to put on a smile so that no one will realise that i'm not okay. Have no idea why i'm not happy. Maybe cause i can't cope with everything that is happening now. How to be happy again?

How are you, sissy?

2010-04-09T21:06:00.003+08:00

How're you doing there? Hope you have fun. XD Its no fun when i'm in the house in the afternoon where i don't hear your laughter. ): Come back soon.

Get well. (:

2010-04-04T21:02:00.001+08:00

I know its been hard. And i can see you're struggling to sleep. Everyday i wake up its as good as saying goodnight to you. I don't know why you can't seem to sleep. I prayed, yes i did. Sometimes i do question myself whether does God answers our prayer? I have my doubts at time and i do give up easily. I went astray for atleast a year till APYAC happen. Started to pray, started believing again.

James 1:6-8 "But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does." NIV

As i started believing again, i'll remember this. One home to another, its sad isn't it? I could actually cry when you're here. All the bruises and dryness, MY GOSH! What can i say or do to help? I can't do much during your stay over my house. You used to be the strongest man i know. Never gave up ehh. Don't break down now and say nobody wants you! DON"T EVER EVER say TAKE A KNIFE AND KILL ME! When she told me i quickly ran away, so afraid to hear the rest. Although you're always thinking negatively but you sitll have a sense of humour huh. HAHAH!I didn't tell him that i was already 50% christian. HAHAHA! So here i'll make a little prayer that the Lord will heal you fully and let you be how you once used to be. AMEN! (:

CLASH OF THE TITANS!

2010-04-03T23:24:00.003+08:00

Watched blind side during youth. The movie not bad had fun laughing at Big Mike an SJ. A good movie to watch. After youth went and watch clash of the titans. The movie was good. Its better when Rachel and i started talking lots of nonsense and sarted laughing like i don't know what. HAHAHA! People behind and infront of us sure as pissed. XD Throughout the movie Aaron and Jessica went EEK! While Rachel and i just couldn't stop laughing at every single thing we saw. AHHAHA! Can be the director dy. What i say really happen in the movie. HAHAHA! After movie went and meet Auntie Sheryl awhile. After we left the rest continue walking and we saw Auntie Sheryl again. I purposely went and bang her and say EHH!! Sorry. HAHAHA! She say we stalking her. =.= Mana ada. When we went Yamaha met her again now our turn to say she stalking us. HAAHAHA! Superbrain finally get to meet Joshua huh? I laugh at your reaction when you see him that time. HAHAHA. I guess Auntie Sherly just love meeting us. Everywhere we go we'll still meet her. HAAHHA. Joshua saw us till fedup dy. Straight away say bye bye. HAHAHA!. Went arcade and exercise. Guess what, Cheng Tsuang threw the basketball so hard that it came flying to my head. Felt like i had migraine. AHHAHA! The indian man standing near by kept laughing at us. SO embarrassing. >.< I wanna watch clash of the titans again! Didn't pay attention that much cause of Rachel. HAHHA!

my thoughts....

2010-03-07T19:09:00.002+08:00

1. Why now adays we get nag at so often? be it in school or at home.
2. Is it wrong for a chinese not to know how to write chinese or speak the language?
3. You always think you're right don't you? Don't you know i was listening to what you say? I'll rather you make it directly than indirectly.
4. Is English really harder than Chinese? I don't think so. If you don't learn chinese you won't know a single thing they wrote but for English, just bring a dictionary along and you'll understand it.
5. I hate the feeling of being useless and you have to add oil to the flame some more.
6. Why time have to go so fast? Soon you'll be gone and i can't see you for a long long time.
7. I hate it when fate plays a fool on me.
8. I won't be forgetting you. But will you?
9. How to study?

2010-03-05T19:18:00.004+08:00

Finally i feel so much better. I think that's the end. I can't do anything to change everything. I feel bad yet i feel better. I think its gonna take me a long long time to get over it. I hope you really understand how i was feeling and seriously i'm sorry if i treated you really bad. Anyway, i'm still traumatized with the video and pictures puan naza showed us. It seriously was scary especially the fats. My Gosh!! lost my appetite seriously and the rest still wanted to watch it cause they didn't saw it. Wonder how yashila find the video interesting when its all so full of blood. Pity Kai Woon, she cried like fountain like that. HAHAHA. We came out with a conclusion to adopt. (: Was seriously waiting for ninonino bring me home just now.

HAPPY CNY! (:

2010-02-14T23:28:00.003+08:00

Watched Percy Jackson & the lightning thief yesterday. The movie was not bad wouldn't mind watching a second time. Garick said its kid show. Yeah larh, i know you watch clash of the titans kind larh. HAHAHA! Next one would be valentine day. Who wanna watch bring me along. XD Jie Nana drove us back in time for reunion dinner. Jie Kie or Uncle Kuat's so call Koko Kie (which i heard as cocky) and i are excited for the arrival of our most important client on monday. Sadly to say chubby became a murderer.

Spend today visiting Dad's Big brother and had reunion dinner with them and the rest of the uncle's and auntie's. Went to Ahma's house after that. Went home slept like a log till six plus then left the house again. Went and visit Uncle Sunny they all. The cousin there were awesome although not close to them. Okay! who am i kidding, never talk to them before. We shy larh. Hee. XD I can see their bond with each other was great. First thing uncle Sunny said to me was err... i forgot but its something about gambling. Then i replied him forgive and forget. HAHAHA. Cause once i won alot of money and since then he remembered me as the person who won that side of the family money. HAHAHA. There's one uncle who kept giving Garick and Jie Nana wine. I wanted to take a sip but then when i look at dad, his stares scares me. So, i guess i'm still stuck with jolly shandy. Haih. Uncle Sunny tried to drag me in to gamble but i didn't want. HAHAHA.

Uncle Sunny: Come i bring you in. they want to gamble with you. (pulling me)
me: HAHAHA. Don't want larh. I lost alot last year.
Uncle Sunny: HUH! Are you sure? This year tiger also cannot win arh?
Me: Cannot. i only can win in the pig year.
Mum: (laughing all the way) she born in the pig year.
Uncle Sunny: WOW!! like that you have to wait another 10 more years. By then you'll be 24. Finish studying dy and maybe got boy dy won't gamble arh.
Me:(faint) Tak ada larh. tak ada.
Someone: Wow! who knows married dy arh.
me: (lagi faint)
Uncle Sunny: i look at her arh, i can see she won't want children one.

MY GOSH!! They think too far can. Think until boyfriend then married then after that children. =.= How old am i only still too young. HAHAHA! Everyone keep saying Jie Nana man. Are you married? HAHAHA. Somehow new year always give me the feeling that gambling is our family tradition during chinese new year.

2 & 7.

2010-01-15T15:22:00.003+08:00

Everything sucks and nothings going right! I don't like 2010. I hate it. When will something right happen? Maybe it wouldn't happen for a very long time. That's it! It sucks not knowing what will happen in the future but at the same time if i know what happen there's no more fun in discovering what will happen.

2 & 7

Lift Up Your Eyes

2009-12-27T18:03:00.002+08:00

I see heaven before me
Angels passing around me
Here i stand in awe of your beauty
Captured by your holiness

Lift up your eyes
All of heaven's in worship
Angels rejoice and the clouds will be filled
With the wonder of your name
With the wonder of your name

The train of his robe fills the temple with glory
Heavenly hosts fall before him in worship
Crying Holy,Holy,Holy is the Lord God Almighty

Holy Holy Holy is the Lord God Almighty

Trying hard to learn how to play this song. Its easy but i need to get my strumming right. Great song to listen to when i'm down.

2009-12-27T17:50:00.002+08:00

Christmas was fun. Okay. Except for the acting part. I forgot my lines and i was like looking at Rachel with the kind of face saying help me out!!! HAHAH. They spray my hair till the purple looked very obvious. Makeup made me looked like alien. HAHAHA. Victor told me that Cynthia is considering naming her daughter jinggle Bella. HAHA.!! Now everyone is calling me Jinggle Bella. Went to tc with sis, Cheng De, Bro and sis friends after service. Watch Sherlock Holmes. The fighting was interesting but definitely not the talking. Some people who say the movie will be very interesting fell asleep during the movie. HAHAHA. But i had a great time with them. Having non stop laughter and non stop teasing ah Hooi. HAHA. Went home quite late. Joshua Fan came and visit. (: Obviously played with him for a while then go bath. Cause the spray smell very teruk okay.

2 more days...

2009-12-23T21:21:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was the last day of Rainbow camp. Nothing to say really. Had our second last practice today. Practice from 11 plus till around 7. tired? Well, of course. Tried the purple colour hairspray today. The colour not that obvious but nice. (: My fingernails are pink now. =.= I was seriously crying during lunch just now. Just discovered that i couldn't really eat super spicy stuff. HAHA. After lunch we went back and slack awhile cause the guy tuning the piano. Had to go upstairs cause we're extremely noisy. Played the song the one we love and surrender no the player, like always Victor and i will start singing. After that Joshua Fan came already. Everyone went and play with him. I was in the storeroom doing stupid things, like seriously stupid and embarrassing things. And when i did my ballerina turn, not even half turn i fell down just like that. People outside laugh like mad cause there's a big window there. HAHA. During worship practice just now, Cheng Tsuang, Bo Hao and i a little bit gila. We kept doing our so called "new jazz" dance. And we kept jumping and doing weird things. HAHAHA. I started to sing We Speak To Nations again. (: Played with Joshua Fan awhile during the free times. He super active larh. HAHAHA. And when we're acting that time right, Rachel have to pull my hair. When Rachel pulled my hair Joshua Fan came running at me. He wanted to save me from being beaten or what. So sweet kan? When his parents told him that its just acting he didn't believe and almost cried when his parents carry him away. He stick to me till practice ends. He super cute larh. (:

4 more days...

2009-12-21T17:09:00.002+08:00

It's getting boring now adays. Nothing happened at all. I've been sleeping and eating everytime. Help out in church just now. the little kids keep wanting to go to the toilet. =.= Christmas is coming. And i do not want makeup's and dress!!

SEXY JIN!!

2009-12-17T21:20:00.005+08:00

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Seriously, Jin is getting funnier each day. Just looking at what he write in his facebook makes me laugh like mad. I pray to God that you'll be sexier too. So that you'll stop saying i'm sexy to yourself. Lord, i beg you to answer my prayers. AMEN! (:

Brian Jin Ho Yang The word for this month is... (SEXY) I think I'm becoming sexier each day..! If there was another me, I would fall in love~~~ xoxoxo

Brian Jin Ho Yang I think I'm sexy... I hope nobody gives me a comment on this... I am pretty sure that I am... Why do I find myself sexy? I think I'm in love... I am in love with myself...~

Brian Jin Ho Yang (GOD = LOVE) & (JIN = SEXY)

Sorrry, Jin. I'm not obsessed with you. I'm a little bit more into the japanese guitarist. She's so cool. XD

what i want for christmas....

2009-12-17T13:00:00.002+08:00

What i want for christmas is to see the people i miss and have a great time together with them. My i miss list is super duper long. HAHAHA. Cause i miss everybody. (:

I miss BEARBEAR I miss MAY JEAN
I miss SUPERBRAIN I miss MAY YEEN
I miss SUPERGLUE I miss SUZANNE
I miss SHANG LE I miss SUVIEN
I miss PEI YEE I miss JIN HO
I miss SEXY LAI I miss REBEKAH
I miss ZOE I miss DELIA
I miss SHU XIAN I miss AMABEL
I miss WEN JIN I miss SUYEN
I miss JOSEPH I miss TUA EE
I miss TRECIA I miss UNCLE HOE
I miss BEATRICE I miss JIE JIE JUJU
I miss CHARLOTTE I miss JIE JIE NANA
I miss KOKO GARICK I miss JIE JIE NONA
I miss MIMI I miss YAYA :(
I miss SHIRLENE I miss AUNTIE ANN
I miss JONATHAN I miss UNCLE SI
I miss RAYMOND I miss LESLIE
I miss JIE JIE KIE I miss FLORENCE
I miss EVELYN I miss AUNTIE KENG
I miss UNCLE KUAT I miss JOSHUA FAN
I miss C.R.I.M.E I miss MUMMY
I miss DADDY I miss BRO
I miss SISSY I miss JIA CHI
I miss AMADEA I miss ANTHONY
I miss CHRIS I miss SANJNAA
I miss MAE I miss YVONNE
I miss MADIHA I miss DIYANAH

Santa Claus, will you answer my christmas wish? If you do THANK YOU. (: A simple christmas wish from a simple kid. HAHAHA.

9 more days....

2009-12-16T12:04:00.003+08:00

Last night had practise for christmas. All of us turn up. The little kids were dancing. So cute. HAHAHA. But we're cuter. We're acting. HAHAHA. I told Rachel now i rather dance or sing than act. Last time was i rather dance or act than sing. HAHAHA. Oh me gosh!! Seriously very awkward man. Although is nothing that serious but still very awkward. And i can't laugh. That seriously is hard. HAHAHA. Man! The worship practise got me so high. Come back home still tak mau diam. HAHAHA. Ohh and Aaron teach me how to play 21 guns. HEE! (: People at home will hear me sing ONE, 21 GUns!! HAHAHA. BAsically i only know the starting. HAHAHA. I like church new signboard. From far its seriously nice cause its in purple. YAY!

HAPPY 20th ANNIVERSARY,

Mom and Dad.!! (:
thank you for everything. (:

11 more days....

2009-12-14T12:43:00.004+08:00

Its 11 more days to christmas. I'm seriously looking forward for christmas this year. Before APYAC i wasn't looking forward for christmas at all. Maybe because of something that i don't know why but i took it like i'm spending it like how i spend the other years. 06' christmas was the best. After APYAC i couldn't wait to spend christmas with people i L.O.V.E. If only i could go up to KL, i might get to celebrate christmas with Tua Ee like the year 07'. That time no electric some more. So fun. (: I might also get to meet with Jin and Becky and of course May Jean, May Yeen, Suzanne and Suvien too. But i have to stay in JB. Gonna act again. Now i have to be the bad guy man. I don't know how to act as a bad guy. Although everyone say i can act but i feel that i couldn't. Seriously its hard and they want me to speak in chinese. What kind of chinese do they expect from a banana? haih. I need GOD's help now. I hope i won't mess up everything. Gonna have practise tomorrow. Hopefully it won't clash with guitar class.

Filled with longing for your presence

Filled with longing for you Lord

I come running dry and thirsty

I am desperate take me.

I surrender all of my life to you

Come and take me use me however you choose

All i am is yours.

With all of my days,

With all of my life,

Here i am this sacrifice

For all that you are

For all that i'm not

I live for you.

You Are The One We Love!! *jump jump* (:

p/s: Should i create a facebook account just to keep in touch with them?

APYAC 09'

2009-12-13T21:23:00.012+08:00

I'm back from APYAC. It was so awesome and great. I met a few new friends and i met friends i met last year. 29 nations gather together to worship the Lord. What's more important is i was filled with the holy spirit.... i think? HAHAHA. I don't know but i felt great. Because for the first time i pray out loud when Amadea ask us to do devotion with her. I met JinHo. Somehow i felt that he changed a lil bit or maybe i wasn't really close to him last year? HAHAHA. Neighbours, Jonan and John Koh were there too. And guess what, i met Rebekah. And i didn't know she was my ex-senior until she told me she was from convent. She was in Teresa and i didn't really know she existed. HAHAHA. Terrible me. I met a Bangladeshi friend also. His name is called Rantu. Peter was from Africa.

Me: So where's james?
Peter: HAHA.
Amadea: Yeah like she say where's James?
Peter: Ohh, there's no james but here's Andrew. HAHA.
Amadea: WOW! All of Jesus desciples. So in your family there's 12 of you?
Peter: HAHA. no.

I like Pastor Mike's sermon the most. He never fails to make us laugh. Pastor Clement also never fails to make us laugh. Put Pastor Mike, Pastor Clement and Pastor Julie together and you'll know all of us will end up having stomachaches. I pity John. Pastor Mike always gets at him. HAHAHA. We made a vow also on the last day. Vow to keep our virginity till after marriage. And Pastor Victor was seriously very straight forward. HAHAHA.

My favourite from Pastor Mike:mike pilavachi.

Parents who give their children socks and underwear for Christmas deserves to be shot.
On that evening, cakey and i became ONE flesh.
After giving the guy in the box too much of diet cokes, ice cream, choc and etc... He needed a bigger box.
Christian without Christ becomes IAN. Ian won't save you.
I was paid to be good... but you're good for nothing.

Pastor Clement:
John the baptise's favourite brand is camel.
She was barren. Everybody say ohh ohh.

Pastor Julie:
Girls! Never unzipped or unbutton and simply touch. AMEN! (:
I'm very alive in hospital and during wedding. But one place i died before was at the shopping centre. (She just hated shopping)

I seriously will miss this camp cause its awesomely awesome. I met lots of new friend and got along well with them. People like Rebakah and JinHo i'll miss the most. Cause we got along very well. Sit together and laugh and practically making Jin felt bad or something. HAHA. Jin seriously have a bad center of gravity when he's excited. He felled down like twice when we were taking picture. Bo Hao was funny. He was like ehh. later in the dorm will be very cold. He brought his sleeping bag along. And when he reach the hostel he was like HUH? no aircon arh? HAHAHA. Everyone says i look like Rebekah. Don't have larh. Jin ask John whether we look like sisters? John say yeah. Sisters from another mother. And Jin always say that Becky is my sister. I'll miss you guys. keep in touch okay..?

seriously, i needed trauma & kecemasan.

white chicks poses.

walking up the hill.

I love 9'C. (:

Amadea. HAHA.

Was trying real hard to open the box.

We don't look alike. XD

I Love You drink.

JinHo.

this became my wallpaper. (:

photogenic kan?

May Jean. (:

more white chick.

May Yeen.

Look! His hair is still so neat after using my rubberband.

Jonan.

Rantu.

Jin would most probably say its the sisters.

I became her trademark.

HAHA. Jin's face is shining!! (:

neighbors from H.U.G.E. (:

opps. XD

Thank you Jin and Becky. I'm so touch. Sobs.
People thought i was crazy know. =.=

group picture.

2009-12-07T20:28:00.002+08:00

Yay! going for APYAC soon. Very excited cause i get to meet Jin Ho, my korean friend and also neighbours from last year huge camp. I miss them so much. What a pity that Elizabeth can't go. I miss that girl too man. Anyway, i hope i'll enjoy this trip. Guess what Delia and Victor will be going. It won't be that boring. We'll laugh at the video's we took last time and especially at Daryl's voice recording when he was younger. Laugh like mad. I hope Pastor Thomas and Auntie Lai Lai won't get distracted by our laughing and super loud voices. And my cousin's used to say i laugh like hyena's. How sad. Sekali all of us end up sleeping in the car. HAHAHA. Lao da's aren't going. One have exam the other one starting school dy. Don't worry we still have our tai ka jie, Amadea. Habis larh nanti kena dia marah again. HAHA. I remember last year Jonathan calls me tai ka jie cause of the way i say hi. I wonder where he is right now. Ohh and there's a new addition. Our newest member Jacky. I hope i'll recover soon. The stupid cough and flu is bringing me down man. Not so active like before. Thank you Jesus for the day i pray that you'll heal me. Amen! And Secret Admirer, don't worry i'm back. Trust me for that. :D

2009-12-03T16:15:00.003+08:00

you're making me sad.

But it can't be helped.

singapore trip

2009-12-03T13:24:00.002+08:00

Went to Singapore on sunday with Mae, Yvonne and Zoe after church. We sat the bus to Singapore and Zoe seriously very scared to get lost. HAHAHA. The bus driver very friendly and funny. When we're about to leave the CIQ he was like hold tightly arh, we're going on a formula one race. When we reach Singapore custom he say we're all winners. HAHAHA. In the bus no one gave him any response except for the four of us. HAHAHA. And Zoe's center of gravity too high larh. She cannot stand on a bus. She keep making lots of noise in the bus and banging people. I think the lady sitting near Zoe doesn't like her. HAHAHA. We sat bus to Mae's sister house. Slack there for awhile then went to orchard road. Tow brought us around orchard road and drop us at i forgot where after that. we walk around orchard and decided to eat Mos Burger. And and that Terence hor ask us to find him and when we reach there he fly to some where else dy. Around ten plus we started to find the bus stop. We walk like mad just to find for the bus stop. Yvonne slept the earliest. The three of us talk till five in the morning and whenever we laugh, Yvonne will turn auntie and say eh, go sleep dy larh tomorrow need to wake up early. HAHAHA.

30th November 09'
Woke up around nine plus plus. Mae and i slept on the sofa while waiting for Yvonne and Zoe to finish bathing. HAHAHA. Went to the zoo by bus. it felt scary stopping at a super duper ulu place with no one around. Switch bus and we reach the zoo. We had lots of fun in the zoo. I mean learning new names and stuff larh. Zoe call the the proboscis monkey kukubird nose monkey. HAHAHA. We laugh every time she says that. I like Carlos the seal. so cute larh.!! We walk to the crocodile part and guess what we saw, crocodile's penis. We laughed like mad can cause it looked like chicken drumstick. HAHAHA. We spend the whole day at the zoo. And guess what Zoe's favourite animal now is gila monster and mine is babirusa. HAHAHAHA. At night we went for night safari. We walk instead of sitting the tram. We walk and walk and walk and we realized that the hyena's could like just jump out of their land cause its not caged. After walking we went and wait for the animal show to start. its seriously funny and quite fun cause we keep going ahh!! so cute! HAHAHA. And without realizing, all along there's a snake hiding under our seats. Guesss what, Zoe saw yellow colour shirt guy again. HAHAHA. well, we made it quite obvious i supposed. HAHAHA. We slept at three thirty cause super tired.

1st december 09'
Went to the science centre for body world exhibition. Quite interesting but not much to see. And guess what we learned there. Sex is healthy. =.= Mae and i were like okay and we walk off. HAHAHA. then we head back to JB. Walk in cs for awhile then went to Mae's house.

2nd december 09'
Woke up at twelve plus and i realize i was still sleepy. HAHAHA. We spend the afternoon baking brownies our own. It didn't turned to be like how we want it to look like. The brownies tasted not bad. so Joyce was saying looks are deceiving. HAHAHA.

2009-12-02T02:26:00.003+08:00

who changed my blogskin?
mae did!! (:
let's jump andknock our heads on the ceiling and grow tall. (:

there.

mae : definition of justina = growing lamer everyday! :D

church is shifting.

2009-11-23T13:12:00.002+08:00

Urgh!! My tangan banyak sakit. Help packing useful stuffs and carrying the tables, chair and etc, etc... We carried things that is as heavy as an elephant down from the second floor. Now my hand super tired and pain. HAHA. But it was all worth it kan? Our old church building so ulu semua pun tak boleh buat. HAHAHA. Auntie Evon say *pointing to her stomach* here, will be gone. *pointing to her arm* here, will increase, no more flabby. HAHAHA. After shifting everything into the big truck, send sis home to study for her exam and off to the new church. There we start to unpack everything. And another round of carrying the super duper heavy dinosaur weight things up to the first and second floor. But i slacked a little. Okay maybe not a little but ALOT!!! HAHAHA. After everything went up, Rachel, Becky and i explored the church. The first floor was great. Cause i love the curtain and carpet. I mean the colour of the curtain and carpet. Purple and blue!!! :P The wall of the toilets look great because we did the painting. HAHHA. Of all place Joshua Fan love the toilet the most because of the air aligator. HAHAHA. I don't know how to spell larh. I only know the back got a -lator. The second floor is well nice? I like the wind. So windy and cooling up there. The office would be nicer if there isn't any curtains. (: Well, me as usual up to alot of mischievious thing. Went and explore the third floor which isn't ours. Surprisingly the door isn't lock. Went in take picture like i don't know what cause sis say "must have the picture of our new church before and after know." Because we don't have the picture of before the building was renovated, we went up there and took pictures. Its exactly the same. (: The view was better up there. And when i look down from the window i was like WOAH!! i better back off before i faint. HAHAHA. What to do i'm afraid of height's and i don't know why. ): Went and visit grandma and grandpa after that. Talk talk talk then went home. After dinner on the way home, Auntie Ann called and tell us that grandpa fell down and knock his head onto something and it bleed. We rushed back to grandpa's house. I super scared can and was praying hard that nothing will happen to him. Reach there Auntie Noi send him to the clinic. I tell you, i went into the house almost have heart attack arh. The books Shirlene gave me was like WOW!!! four feet tall? and then Raymond have to add more books some more. Haih. Dad says wow! like that go home you have to start studying dy. Fainted for a second then ah Kong came back dy. Good thing its just a scratch. Nothing serious. When ah Kong saw the books he's like whose book is that? Auntie Amelia say Tina's. ah Kong look at me with a you sure or not reaction. HAHAHA. Ah Ma started chasing us home with a reason. She say you all disturbing Leslie. Leslie wants to study cause he tomorrow got exam. And Leslie was like ohh yeah. i'm "studying."HAHAHA. so cute larh she. (: Bro got richer by 100 bucks cause he got 5A's for his UPSR. So good right? I shall study hard for PMR so that i can get richer by 100 bucks. HAHAHA. Justina don't think bout money because money is the root of all evil. So you shall think about er.... Honey!! Okay it isn't helping just because it rhymes. I shall not study for the money but for me. (:

it all ends here. (:

2009-11-21T12:51:00.002+08:00

Ahh, my form two life ends here. All the fun i had this year was better and more than last year. I'll miss it alot. Time seriously went very fast. It felt like i just started form two one month ago and now its ending. How sad. Get to know new friends, from those i wasn't close to last time now we're close and even friendly than ever. What i miss will be sitting in class making lots of noise and suddenly Cik Intan will come in and say "2c! kenapa bising sangat?" HAHAHA. I'll miss sitting in class during maths time then Yvonne, Ely and i will have problem looking at the whiteboard and we'll go like "Ely don't move, Yvonne don't move. what? Mae's tall." HAHAHA. Though it pissed me off sometimes but i'll sure miss it. And being the only one on the field with Lai, Pei Yee, Shang Le and ah Kai during pj's. We always have fun while shouting, singing, laughing and dancing. My endless drama when we're playing volleyball will get Shang Le saying "Justina, you can go for acting larh." HAHAHA. Calling each other names and playing with our imaginary. HAHAHAHA. So funny. The best part was we got caught doing something illegal and getting scolded. HAHA. I'll miss singing in class loudly and everyone goes "aiyo, Justina dah nak hujan." HAHAHA. Once i sang obsessed at the wrong time and everyone was like alamak only some of them know why i sang that suddenly. HAHA. I'll miss talking nonsense with Diyanah, Madiha and Zoe and having endless laughter that will make Yvonne and Ely go shh or shut up. Zoe and Diyanah might go first class or maybe not. ): Sitting behind with xiao Chai and Shu Xian they all was fun. Always laughing and making others lost for words. Just one stare and everyone ends up laughing. HAHAHA. I'm gonna miss 2c and all the crazy times that we've had. Like Lai says we're 2Crazy. (:

Looking forward to form three? I'll say NO! NEVER! and i won't be looking forward to it.!! Because i know that it wouldn't be a good year. If time could stop now it'll be so fun. (: But everything fun have to stop too. So, this is it.

2009-11-18T17:15:00.005+08:00

i just hate it when everything was going so well suddenly it have to be the other way round. when human A and human B were so good. and then human C have to come in. everything that human A and human B went through was for nothing because human C appeared out of no where and make human B left out. and three layer is seriously fake can. i can't take it man. person X and person Z shall not go. but it would make person E sad. so person X and person Z shall try their best to make person E happy. and thats what FRIENDS are for. thanks to three layer everything went wrong. thanks alot and for a moment i thought that you were good and i pitied you. eww!!!

person A-Z

2009-11-18T16:33:00.002+08:00

Recently, person A asked person B whether person B and person C are together or not? Person B says no. They're not. Person A looked angry and says i think if person B ask person C, person C will say yes. When person B ask person A why? Person A refuses to say. Person B ask again and person A say cause person D ask person A whether person B and person C are together or not? And person D added i think if person B ask person C, person C will accept because person C like person B. Person B feels that person C treat person B quite nice. A few days later, person D ask person E whether person B like person C or not? Person E said don't know, go ask person B yourself. Whenever person B walks or passby person C's friend, person c's friend will start calling person C's name. It happens quite alot of time. Once, person B was walking, person C's friend say loudly that person C fell down. And person F which is person C's friend suddenly became friendly to person B. Person F says goodbye to person B before going home.

Confusing isn't it? Let's just see what will happen to person B and person C.

pictures.

2009-11-18T11:53:00.013+08:00

preparing the cake.

i think they're trying to be the same tall as shalinn. (:

i was saying the candle left one only faster blow!!!

HAHAHA.

thank you's. (:

everyone ran away and left her there. HAHAHA.

jessie: i'm so touched. *sobs*

me: smile.(:

group picture!

cpacaf!!!

somebody is in trouble.

she's still not giving in. (:

after we started digging family style.

speech time.

satisfied! (:

our speech.

reading our wishes.

jessie was like very long hor? HAAHAHA.

listening to jessie's speech.

#1 from the back.

cleaning up.

we're super duper cute. XD

marchers.

for once shalinn is taller than jessie. (:

i got fired. ):

and when people say that you're embarrassing, this is to prove that you're really embarrassing. (:

hardworking people.

she's loving the attention. (:

i'm free. (:

2009-11-14T13:47:00.005+08:00

EXAM'S OVER!!! (: and here's where it all ends. my form two life will end in a week time. can i say i'm sad bout it? nevermind. ohh. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, cik Intan. i mean PUAN Intan. HAHAHA. celebrated jessie's belated birthday yesterday. i don't know whether she's surprise or what but yeah she's super blur. HAHAHA. our plan was khai ling will find jessie and bring her to the canteen where the form one's will be there pretending to take their last picture together with her and the form two's will come out with the cake. i tell you the candle super disaster larh. before we reach jessie all the candle went off except for one. HAHAHA. then suddenly yijin and ziyun came and say here got two more. the look on jessie's face was -.-". HAHAHA. each gift that we gave her have a meaning of its own. box of wishes, shirt of remembrance, gift on sports day and 17 roses for her 17th birthday. HAHAHA. we ate the cake till so... you know. the cake before and after looks so different. it looked dangerous after we ate it. but we enjoyed it cause its family style. (: the first time i ate a cake with family style was at my grandma's house. so memorable larh that time. each of us athletes gave jessie a speech she took video know. good thing her camera ran out of memory space already. (: everyone say when i say my speech that time i like auntie lucy. mana ada larh. HAHA. took alot of pictures but couldn't post it yet. can't find the wire so i'll be posting it next time. HAHAHA. guess what, "secret admirer" finally gave me my flower. HAHAHA. and its a big one i must say. (: and jessie, when you finally get married to dato bahaman must invite me okay. XD

2009-11-07T13:23:00.004+08:00

SEJARAH and BM is this monday. and i'm cracking my head to get all the things right. like the names of the sultan or what so ever. so many names makes me confuse. but i realised something, i like sejarah more than before even though it sucks. HAHAHA. i'm not really prepared for exam. urgh!! cause i spend my time reading history and the rest is like jump here and there so now everything in my head is jumping up and down mixing together and there you go a perfectly "nice" result. HAHAHA. when we're halfway through sivik exam, the light infront just on top of peiyee terbakar and there's smoke. the bbq-ed light smelled like erm... burning charcoal added with plastic. HAHHA. stupid light make our class so dark its as good as living in a cave. during pj exam was the FUNNIEST. we know why and it's still gonna just be between 2c and teacher. HAHAHA. just remembering the look on teachers face. teacher told us got corrections for question no.8 after she corrected it finish, i ask her... so, the answer is? teacher laugh at me and answer the answer is E. HAHAHA. and when teacher saw what i wrote on the paper she seriously wanted to smack me and the whole class wondered why. HAHAHA. during moral seriously super embarassing. peiyee and i were playing with our imaginary and i reach out to my bottle about to drink and as i move the bottle nearer to my mouth, the aiming went wrong it hit my face super duper hard. peiyee and i were laughing super hard. and the new teacher keep looking at me. HAHA. and guess what, uncle's bus rosak again!!! like wow. but we're smarter we sat taxi back home. HAHAHA. the last time his bus spoilt was when its raining super heavy and we climbed over the primary school gate. HAHAHA. they all so ngiao one larh. i don't know how to speak chinese or english or malay properly anymore. i tried talking to jc and kai it ended up being a mess and they laughed at me but i find it funny too. badan kamu berkilat dan ketat. saya suka. HAHAHA. guess thats all that happened this week. HAHAHA.

2009-10-31T14:38:00.003+08:00

what is there to hide? why act like you don't know? i mean its not a big deal actually to just admit. what's so hard just admitting that? we knew everything right from the start. and seriously, you barney betul!!! nevermind five more days to exam and i'm still blogging. one word three alphabets - W-O-W!!

STOP IT!!

2009-10-24T13:05:00.003+08:00

URGH!!! I'm pissed. no mood!!!! you better keep your promises i tell you or else i'll seriously jump into a water puddle and make you wet and never talk to you ever again. nothing can seperate us right? i hope so. i think too much lately. thinking about what if this happen? what if that happen? i'm tired of it. but it still won't stop me from worrying too much. i need confirmation. haih. thirteeen more days to exam and i'm here worrying. so now i'm just praying hard that GOD will help me study and remember every single thing that i've learnt. but i'm not in the mood to study. so whatever man. and i give up on netball. i no longer have the feel of playing it. so please don't ask me to go for camp anymore. i wouldn't enjoy playing it anymore cause i gave it up because of something and someone. and as years goes by, i'm no longer good in it anymore or maybe from the start i wasn't good in it at all. i'm done with it. i don't think anyone can change my mind anymore.

2009-10-17T21:47:00.002+08:00

yay!! cute teacher is gonna teach me maths. and hopefully on monday i can go out. (: i'll be happy to meet you. and you'll be happy to teach me. HAHAHA. but must be super patient with me okay? HAHAHA. JJSY ROCKS!! (: i hope that somebody will cheer up. (:

time to study. (:

study! study!! study!!! study!!!! study!!!!!

WHY WASN'T I BORN A GENIUS!?

2009-10-09T20:46:00.002+08:00

i'm not in the mood to do anything. ish!! stupid maths!! stupid maths!!! why can't maths be easier. lousy brain. i'm sick and tired of not knowing how to do maths. damn it! why wasn't i born a genius? i should have study harder when i was younger. i myself know that my maths is not that great but i didn't bother to do anything about it. man i regretted it damn much now. know its not good also didn't want to go for tuition. so i guess this is probably one of my last time blogging before the exam. i'll spend most of my times with the books. i better start now or else i'll regret even more.

spongebob squarepants!! (:

2009-10-04T19:00:00.002+08:00

during youth yesterday, we did a little acting. first bohao wanted to do fantasy and fairy tales. i was like what? but just didn't say out. then i was talking bout mr krab and spongebob. since it was fantasy i said i'll be mr bean. immediately at the hearing of mr bean, me and victor got up from our seat and did the mr bean dance. it was funny and practically dumb. HAHA. at the end bohao changed the theme to spongebob squarepants. and i'm mr krab. MONEY!!$$ actually it was not bad. cause we laughed alot.and the best part was, rachel became gary! she crawled around the church and went miow!! (: HAHA. instead of saying talk to the hand, i have to say talk to the claw. and it sounded weird. MONEY!!! $$ ka-ching. (:

2009-10-04T16:11:00.003+08:00

monday.
kerja kayu was super fun. and suddenly i felt stupid for not choosing the right materials and also the right length for the kayu. but still mine didn't ended up a disaster like last year's one. being a left handed is hard. we need lots of strength to cut the kayu. one more day left and kerja kayu would end.

tuesday.
during english time, suddenly the whole class stinks of some kind of smell someone farted or something? i don't know and never did care. HAHAHA.

ME: zoe! you fart!

ZOE:ehh, not me larh. ELY!!

ME: ya larh, ya larh. (in an unconvinced way)

ELY: what? eh.. ayam tu kat bawah larh.

DIYANAH: alah! menyalahkan ayam pula.

US: HAHAHA.

we ended up laughing the whole way. until teacher finally came into class and everyone turned silent.

wednesday.

nothing really happen. all i know was, the weather was super duper hot.

ZOE:i'm sleepy.

DIYANAH:(take a book and whack zoe's head)

ZOE: owh!! what's that for?

DIYANAH: now, are you awake?

thursday.

today we pj-ed for awhile only. time do pass by quickly. as usual pei yee, shang le, lai and me are the only one in the field till 2b come down for pj. we played court and we kept laughing like mad. HAHAHA. we didn't really study much today.

#we are unable to translate this into chinese due to and unknown error. please bear with us. thank you. (: #

WAN YI: the person sitting next to the person infront of me is a pig. (infront: shangle,next me or wan yi(wanyi sitting at shu xian's place))

ME:the person sitting next to the person infront of you.... wow!! you saying yourself arh.

US: HAHAHA.

sometimes when you really wants to win during a conversation, go to wan yi. confirm can win. HAHAHA.

friday.

wen jin, wan yi and zi yun was absent. leave shu xian alone sitting behind. HAHAHA. we didn't study the whole day. we just sat and chat until cik firdaus and cik intan came into class. ahh!! went back to my childhood times again. HAHA. i touched shu xian or su yin and said you catch. i started running away and they seriously teman this childish kid in playing police and thief again. HAHA. xia hui and kai woon also. it was super fun. i feel like a kid again. HAHAHA.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, JESSICA!

2009-10-04T15:22:00.004+08:00

last sunday after sis tuition, we went to a korean restaurant some where near home to celebrate her birthday. and at first i seriously felt super jakun eventhough it wasn't my first time eating in a korean restaurant. i'm just being me, i guess. HAHA. we had to take off our shoes and that makes me feel like home. (: after dinner went home and cut her birthday cake and i'm already full. what's worse was, her friends came and help her celebrate her birthday and at that time i was still doing my homework. i've no choice but to eat another piece of big cake. we ended up watching an indian show on vasantham central. well obviously we watch for awhile only. so funny. they slap each other and when they fight only bruce lee can fight like that. HAHAHA.

the place is quite nice. i must say.

doulos

2009-10-04T14:17:00.005+08:00

their lifeboat's name.

went to doulos last saturday. went there quite a few times already so its still the same old thing. HAHA. nothing to really blog about. i enjoyed the wind most. (:

urgh!! i dread taking temperature the most. everytime in school the thing will go beep.beep.beep!!

HAHAHA. i wanted to buy those books for sis as her birthday present.

title:peter's house. HAHAHA. then i thought don't lame larh. and i didn't bought it. HAHAHA.

nothing to say. XD

erm. we're being a little bit jakun there. (:

if i'm not wrong the guy's name is daniel from switzerland and guess what!! he's 192 cm.

he's a brazalian and i forgotten his name. HAHA.

2009-10-04T13:40:00.000+08:00

i like the way it is right now.

deleted and forgotten. (:

2009-09-25T23:33:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MICHELLE CHIN LOKE EE. (:

stay happy and don't always so emo okay?

and you know what you should know. HAHA.

HAHA.

2009-09-25T23:23:00.004+08:00

the little kids dancing to 2pm's again & again and super junior's sorry sorry. yellow colour pants boy got me laughing like mad. he's adorable and very funny. (: somehow he gave me a feeling that he looks like hankyung. HAHAHA.

...

2009-09-24T16:28:00.002+08:00

i'm bored. so damn bored. and i wish i didn't know you. and that's it. ohh! and congrats to yours truly, me!! i deleted it all dy. HAHAHA. well, it isn't something to be happy and to cheer about isn't it? haih. fine! well, last time but now it is. HAHA. i finally get to break free from that. all broken promises no longer matters to me. HAHA. the promises that haven't been broken matters most. (:

2009-09-22T16:33:00.007+08:00

the movie we watch. (:

went to tc yesterday with megan, shujin,shalinn,celine and JIEW ANN!!! haha. it's been a long time since i saw here. she's so much more thinner now and i still can't tell whether she grew taller or not. HAHHA. She still looks the same to me. it's either i didn't grow or we both didn't grow taller at all. HAHAHA. saw rouxing yesterday, we were walking then suddenly we heard people say there rouxing. i stop and look behind really was rouxing. HAHAHA. we watch the movie tsunami. it's nice and funny and quite sad. near the ending people cried. people like shujin and jiew ann cried. i guess i'm not human anymore. can't seem to cry even when i'm sad or something. is it a good thing or a bad thing? after the movie, me and shujin need the toilet so damn urgently and the rest were walking pretty slowly. well, thank god we reach the toilet. but when we're inside everyone did something embarrassing. gosh!! shujin shouted when she's inside the toilet booth cause she almost fell. and everyone outside was looking at us like wth!!! we laughed alot. and when i came out from toilet megan and shujin started greeting me in thai. what happen to them man. HAHAHA. that time was seriously embarassing. HAHHA.

celine fong.
do re mi! (:

CHENG JIEW ANN!!! (:

eh!! somebody tipu camera shy. HAHA.

this is what happen when we ask daryl to take our bags.

yay!!!

2009-09-17T21:52:00.003+08:00

YAY!!! i'm so happy. you finally don't have to go already. i'll take back the song we sang for your mum. who almost took you away from us. we sang that song only because you begged your mum not to let you go but she lost her control and ended up slapping you. at that time i felt damn guilty also you know. and to think that our last walk would be our first walk starting from now. you kept your promise and i'm happy. (: You're my first friend in convent know!! So i thank you for that. Thank you, shu jin.!!

GOOD NEWS!!
SHE'S NOT LEAVING US. (:

one week left.

2009-09-11T21:03:00.004+08:00

monday.

i said something quite weird in class today and it was just meant for zoe to listen only. but i didn't know cik intan would listen. HAHA. teacher asked us to bring something round tomorrow. so i turn to zoe and say...

me: Zoe, can i bring your butt?

zoe: HAHA. ( the class total silence)

cik intan: (all of a sudden) HUH? what? justina lee!! ZOE'S BUTT?

me: (oppsing silently with zoe) HAHA.

cik intan: I bring your butt.

HAHA. Thats basically what teacher said i think. ? i lost my brain halfway, so i can't remember. (:

tuesday.

I'm saying sorry to someone because she wanted me to be happy without me forcing myself to be happy. but then its hard okay. especially when somebody is going away again. can i be the one going instead?

wednesday.

finally, i get to spent time talking to anith again. but i've no idea whats gotten into her. getting pervertic dy. must be kai woon teach her one. tsk. tsk. tsk. by the way, everybody! i'm innocent. i thought her a few words. the rest, i've no idea. must be kai woon and megan teach de.

thursday.

got pj again!! yay! like normal the four of us lai, pei yee, shang le and me are the only one in the field. as usual, we play volleyball and we're always very high. dancing and singing like there's no tomorrow. but we did more loud laughing. we're like in our own world. after pj me and wanyi helped cik firdaus with maths and science attendance till school ended. skipped encik amru's class. (: help cik firdaus bring books to the car. well, teacher talked to me and i felt awkward because i can't seem to say something very conversational to her. maybe i'm not close to her just yet. but i guess it be better in a few more days. teacher asked me to write chinese and sadly i don't know how to write. HAHA. thanks lee en for helping me write while we translate together.

friday.

hmm. my eyes bengkak till very deep cause couldn't get enough sleep. HAIH. took koko marks also. very low larh. haha. thanks jia chi mummy for hearing me out. i will have more yong qi kay. don't worry. (: and thanks to chelle too. (: puan ainey's last day before she take a long break. i keep calling her cik ainey larh. i don't know why maybe used to it already. and i can guess that when cik intan finally become a puan i'm still stuck with cik intan. HAHAHA. we made a card for puan ainey with heart pasted on it. i think its quite nice. (: i think teacher was surprised when she see that a few of us went to the staff room and give her the card. i hope she's happy wherever she is. (:

2009-09-04T20:28:00.003+08:00

I told you that i'm so gonna blog bout you no matter what. (: didn't know you will paiseh. HAHAHA. actually i do not know what i wanna blog bout you also. nevermind. i shall just go to the part where i'm gonna start shouting you're so sweet!!! aww. when i got your reply for that message i almost cry. seriously!! that was the sweetest thing i've heard and also the happiest message i received. And seriously, it made my day. (: by the way, i think you're cute. (: HAHAHA.

imagine that.

2009-08-30T23:25:00.002+08:00

Watch imagine that yesterday with uncle huat and shirlene. The movie was nice and funny. I want my goo-gaa!! HAHA. I wish i had an imaginary friend like sopida, kupida, mopida and qwali. (: Must watch. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUNTIE KENG!!

2009-08-30T23:15:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,

AUNTIE KENG!! (:

You'll always be young. And keep the laughter going. (:

.........................................................................................................................................................................

sometimes ago.

i like. (:

with our one and only daryl lim. (:

AMAZING RACE! (:

2009-08-29T19:55:00.008+08:00

group photo.

Went to hutan bandar just now. uncle jimmy organized immanuel amazing race. it was kinda fun. but tiring. haven't exercise in like weeks. the last time i exercise was like last two weeks. phew.! i love playing the slide. OH NO! i'm addicted to it now. how terrible is that. HAHA. Had to carry daniel and joshua up the playground to play the slide. My hand almost break. Lets just say that i'm exercising my hand. (: Red got first. Yellow second and blue (my group) first. (: ...... from the back. =.= hehehe. (:

youngest member of our youth. (:

he needs exercise after eating chocolates. (:

BLUE!!

semua ada style. (:

climbing up the so call wall.

we're running.

in the process of finishing.

RED!!

YELLOW!!

BLUE!!

i think uncle andrew felt like posing after seeing us all take picture. HAHA. (:

daniel's cockroach and joshua's crocodile.

pointing at the mosquito was just a way to get joshua to look at the camera.

HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY!

2009-08-29T19:07:00.006+08:00

auntie keng. (:

Gave Aunty Keng a surprise yesterday. around 10pm like that uncle si came and fetch us to her house. The four of us, shirlene,my sister, my brother and me squeeze behind. When we reach there i tend to play around like always. I hide behind the car. Just for fun. But i end up getting discovered. HAHA. Aunty Ann and shirlene baked chocolate cake for her. I love the marshmellow the most. We know why. HAHA. Uncle Huat show us pictures when we were young. All of us so cute. Jonathan was cute when he was younger. I fell off the bed like twice. haih. By the way, my mom and my 4 other aunt were phew!! very pretty when they were younger. I'll upload the picture we took some other time.

birthday cake.

before.

after. burnt marshmellow. (:

i love this unisex toilet. i mean room. (:

see how busy they are.

before i fall i think.

after i fall. confirmed. (:

my mum and aunt when they were younger.
top: auntie noi, auntie keng.
middle: tua ee
below: auntie ann, mum

AH KONG!!

HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY, AUNKY KENG. (:

2009-08-28T15:52:00.004+08:00

our lead actresses. (:

went to jusco with charlotte, rachel, auntie lai lai, delia and of course my sis yesterday. ahh!! i miss you all so much!! i mean to charlotte and delia. one in kl the other one in india so far right? we laugh alot like always. people around me likes to laugh i must say. i enjoy my time with you all. i wish we can have more of time together. laugh alot and there's just alot of things to say. i told charlotte what happen to ... and me. and i guess i felt relief after telling it to her. i mean she's older and i guess its okay to tell her. and by the way, charlotte, what do you mean by 'WOW!! you so good arh?' HAHAHA. i since young very good de kay like you don't know. HAHA. all i said when i was younger was mum mum!!! HAHA. so you can't blame me. delia gotten you know. okay only we know. the only thing i can describe is like what rachel say nose will bleed. so i guess you understand what i meant. HAHHA. its about that ba. i forgotten what happen already. HAHAHA.

i really do miss you all. so next time come back must tell us know. cannot so secretive de. (: hope you enjoyed our time together too.

auntie lai lai.

rachel.

charlotte.

delia.

how delia ate her bread.

i wish i could say i'm sorry.

2009-08-27T14:53:00.004+08:00

You've tried. And its going well. Keep it up. You could and its okay. (:

Why whenever i think of you i'll be sad and feel like crying? i've blamed you for it. I'm sorry! I wish you didn't have to go. or maybe even if you have to go make it the end of the year. atleast i'll understand why you have to go more. I blame you and i can't forgive myself for doing that. not doing what i was suppose to do. I've regret it. sometimes it's all too late to say all this. If only you knew i was sorry. If only i could have another last walk with you like i did on the last day i would seriously be brave and tell you everything. I really wish i could say i'm sorry.

think.

2009-08-22T11:28:00.003+08:00

Open up your brain!

Think bout what you've done and try to make it right!!

Don't go around hurting others.

When even you know its wrong do something!!

Don't leave it hanging on a cliff.

Wake up now!!!

What you've done, stop it!

And just let go.

Happy times, keep it as a memory.

Sad times, just let it go and never remember it.

Never to regret what decision that has been made.

you don't know and i'm never gonna tell you.

its for the better.

DON'T GO!

2009-08-21T20:49:00.002+08:00

puan hasnah's last day already. how sad. our new science teacher is new and she's quite fierce. And she got a british slang. WOW! okay. let's not make this post about her. puan hasnah is one of the best teacher anyone could ever have. she's very patient with us. for example like when we don't do finish our work she'll just ask us and then don't bother. sure everyone in the class have done that before. she's very good to us too. although she used some harsh word on us before. but its normal.

on tuesday was the last maths and science meeting too. me and pang bought the card and the keychain earlier dy. the flower for teacher was kinda nice. purple in colour. when we wanted to give teacher the things we bought for her,a few of us followed her up until she reached the staff room. when i gave teacher the card she was kinda speechless. but she smiled. we hang around teacher for a few minutes. i love puan kang's reaction. when she saw the big card she's like WOW!! so big arh? hahah. and we begged teacher to open the card but teacher say don't want cause she scared she'll cry. but at the end teacher open the card. she was like thanking us non-stop. puan kang was like WOW!! so nice! HAHAHA. we took picture with teacher and departed.

and today, alot of people cried like mad. when i was passing by the chemistry lab, 2b were total silence. and afew of 2f's people were outside there listening to teacher's last speech and they end up crying also. when teacher went up to our class she started with okay my last speech cause during maths and science that time a few of us begged teacher for her speech and there we got it. actually i don't plan to cry one but when teacher started giving her speech, i cried. cause its kinda sad. and when she told us that she was old and things and might be gone i can tell half of the class started crying. those who say they don't like teacher cried. those who complain bout teacher giving too much homework cried. those who don't cry easily cried. every single class teacher went to today cried. everyone loves puan hasnah so much. i think teacher will remember today the most. because at 6.30, everyone i mean the whole student body went to the carpark right up to the canteen and wait for puan hasnah to come down and go.all of us formed nicely standing and waiting for teacher and when puan erini walk down people cheered for her but it was a false alarm. HAHA. and when teacher walk down she kinda got a shocked looking at all of us. the last thing i gave her was a goodbye and a hug. then that could be the last time i'll be seeing her.

every single one hugged her in class. and ended up crying. when sanjnaa hug teacher, she say don't go. why must you go? teacher replied her blame my husband. HAHAHA. i told zoe everyone cried then i ask them caryn got cry anot? then caryn say got then she pointed at jia yi and say she didn't cry. HAHA. jia yi still blur lagi. then the others were like aiyo apa larh you blur lagi. in a joking way of course. teacher say ours is the last school she'll be teaching because she wanted to keep the time with us as a sweet memory. that was so sweet.

teacher you say you'll miss us very much just look at the sky and you'll remember us. i told that to someone before but i do wonder whether she stills remember it or not. because the sky link us together. i'll remember you always teacher. and to everyone. no more crying ady kay.

by the way, thanks to michelle,jiachi and teacher for your shoulders. (:

2009-08-16T18:47:00.002+08:00

monday.

there's this singing competition in school for don't know what but i think is for merdeka or something. and guess what i sang. HAHAH. When everyone was singing, i was laughing because seriously i felt something was funny. HAHA. the flag keep sweeping peiyee's hair. HAHA.

tuesday.

i can't remember what happen. all i know is my mood wasn't good because of maybe i shouldn't talk bout this. cause it ain't important. ruining my mood only.

friday.

like normal. go to school in the morning for netball. hopefully its the last one already. cause kinda tired and seriously as time goes by its getting bored. was kinda sick but i still went without mummy and daddy knowing i was sick cause i wanted to go cs with pang to buy thing for pn. hasnah and of course with my parents permission. i cough like mad and when i tell luolin and edlyn my body aches too they say i like ahma. HAHA. bought a super duper big card for teacher. hopefully she'll like it because me and pang like the card so very much. I can say the whole day we didn't really study except for bm and science class. i slept in class and i got the best alarm clock ever. i was sleeping and they suddenly sing birthday song for sanjnaa and i got a fright and woke up. ISH! HAHA. by the way, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO SANJNAA!!

saturday.

went to school. only a few of us went. can say quarter of the afternoon sessions student went. my class only 19 of us went to school. when i ask them who came to school for jahitan? 17 out of 19 put up their hands. HAHAH. when we were sitting in the bengkel, i saw this guy in red shirt walking up there. saw him walk past the tree then he walk back again. i suspected that he was the flasher. cause his face looks familiar to me. HAHA. i saw him touching his down there know. dirty disgusting pervert!!! i told the rest and they looked at him. then shang le, pei yee and lai started shouting at him. HAHA. I can remember shang le's one the best. "next time you do that thing break arh!!!!" all of us were laughing like mad no idea why. but we didn't bother bout him at all. he's just a lonely old man. tak mau muka punya orang! HAHA.

sunday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AVY!! (:

2009-08-09T18:00:00.003+08:00

there's nothing much to blog lately. Cause i keep forgetting what happen in a week. Or worse in a day. Well, pesta is finally over. All the tiredness is gone, i think. The pain left me too. I mean why must you come in the middle of the game? I know someone is so hoping that we lost. So, there we lost. Everyone is getting sick already. all the coughing and running nose. Okay, nothing more about being sick. parents day, teacher didn't say much. she say i'm good. And well, people are laughing there. That would also include myself. my dad ask theacher whether i ask questions in class or not? and teacher said i seldom ask. my dad reply ohh. its quite rare for her to ask question. she's the quiet sort. i was laughing actually. So is michelle. HAHA. when i went back down to the hall again, people told me that A says my dad is good looking. i almost fainted. HAHA. See, there's nothing much to blog.

p/s: To avy and yubei, thanks for cheering me up. (: ILY!

WHY?

2009-08-08T13:19:00.005+08:00

I no longer know what i could do. Why now? Why must it happen? What can i do? We're already so close even before everything happen. Even before any decision. I've no idea how should i feel now. Because i don't think its you. Its just me. I can't bear to lose another close friend. But if i don't do what i know she wanted me to do, she'll be sad. And the worse thing was, she already hate me!! but if i do what she want me to do, then there goes a good and close friend. but if i do what she want me to do, she'll be happy? maybe? i don't know. But the chances of her not hating me anymore is just another dream in my dreamland. And you guess told me not to be too close with her. Thats just as good as losing a close friend i guess. But maybe its the best way? i hope you understand what i'm going through. Its a tough decision to make. i don't know which to choose. because i can't predict what will happen next time. Somebody!! SAVE ME!!!

p/s: to someone else, I'm so sorry!! i couldn't make a choice yet. ILY and IMY!!

CPACAF! (:

2009-08-02T18:38:00.005+08:00

OMG! believe it or not, i message you bout like siao till i don't want to put my phone down. HAHA. every single time a message was replied i'll be smiling so widely till my mum will say smsing boyfriend arh? HAHAHA. no larh. i'm just texting my drug. HAHAHA. i'm so high with you. we shall built a time machine together and stop time so you don't have to go. you're my employee so your new name will be xxx deng deng dam dong key. (: weird name? maybe cause weird is who we are. HAHAA. say i'm full of nonsense some more. haih. i'm a CPACAF kay. must understand me. bear know what it means. HAHA. cause she's one of US too. HAHAHA. by the way, FIST means 'farting is super tough.' because in action movie or where ever larh. you see people kena punch. the puncher use their fist to punch the stomach and the victim would kek at a position and butt sometimes kinda high. the victim is trying to say thanks for helping me get rid of my farting disorder. HAHAHA. so FIST is actually a cure for farting disorder. now you know why i'm full of nonsense larh. HAHA. but maybe for zoe its different. she can easily tell us she wanna fart. and i think she enjoys it. HAHAHA.

p/s: CPACAF means crazy people are cute and funny. (:

2009-07-31T21:13:00.003+08:00

exam super EASY can. in a sarcastic way of course. i died during the first day of exam and my name changed to unknown x. i'll go mad just doing maths. no idea how amirah get 100!! i'm feeling so lazy all of a sudden. can't sleep at night thinking bout my damn good results. 1A 1B and 3 beautiful carved c on my paper. waiting for my kh marks. which most probably be bad too. HAHA. pesta training is like so okay larh. can say fun.but we teresa super poor can. only half of the entire pesta team came. SAD MAN!!! playing netball with puan aida fun man. HAHA. she called me a monkey for jumping alot and moving alot. HAHA. what to do. i'm super hyper no idea why. lately i have to be the bad guy. choose people and telling them they can't play for pesta. damn sad de can. not only sad but hard kay. i die also don't want do this kind of things but i have to do it. prinscy came back for a visit on thursday. i kinda like poured out a little bit of river when i saw her and hugged her cause actually my mood wasn't good also larh. AHHA. and thanks to jia chi so very much. or else i don't know what to do ady arh. HAHA. somebody made a new name for me, justina lee dong dong. HAHA. does buffalo glue even exist?!

2009-07-24T22:04:00.002+08:00

i can't be a lawyer. OMG! so terrible can. bearbear and panda wanted to sue the cat. ish! for winking at me. scary can and making bearbear scream. jahat cat! so pervetic some more. HAHAHA. i want to sue you man. trials shall be held one of this days. i'm sure to make you cry like mad. and also ask your mum to send you to school. okay. well, maybe not cause maybe you're born in the school. HAHA. you made my day man. i wasn't feeling really good that time but i didn't tell you. thank you. (:

2009-07-24T21:49:00.002+08:00

OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG!

sometimes its just between you and me. i'm not happy. ):

because its never coming my way. but....

WHY?!

2009-07-24T21:41:00.002+08:00

who should i put?

M OR A?

should i or shouldn't i?

2009-07-18T11:44:00.003+08:00

what you said made me think twice. but i just can't seem to make a decision right now. its hard you know. because both also i care about. i can't like just because H care bout me more than O then i have to make a choice who to treat better. i know its unfair. but now i'm trying to treat both equally the same. i should care bout the one who care bout me and treat the one who don't really care bout me good right? okay. i'm not making sense here. i'm confused again. nevermind. i'll sort it out myself. (:

WHAT CAN I DO?

140709 (:

2009-07-17T22:11:00.002+08:00

its been a year since i knew you. i'm kinda happy and proud about it because we went through so much together. HAHA. okay. but still its quite alot. taking us to become friend is kinda hard. because you know why i know why so i don't have to say. but still no matter what happen i didn't blame you and still want to be your friend. because i guess a friend like you is important to me and hard to come by. maybe i hurt you a few times. yeah. i guess i did. sorry bout it. but after we kinda like quarreled few hours later we're okay again right? so i guess you can't let go neither can i? i know i can't let go of our friendship. when i'm sad you're there. ready to make me happy again. asking me not to cry everytime. i remember those. HAHA. i remember most of the things we went through together and i'm glad that we've know each other for one year plus dy. love ya lots. (:

FLAGDAYS!!!

2009-07-17T20:34:00.005+08:00

OMG!! OMG!! tired is the word for this whole week. but its kinda fun going for flagdays duty. HAHA. the only semangat thing i'll most probably do for st john. HAHA. cause of flagday i get to know some new people. okay. maybe not new but only i didn't talk to them before. okay. maybe not new. i miss my flagdays memories last year. i miss the bangings. thinking back makes me sad and happy at the same time.

monday.

went to larkin for duty. the bus station was like very the hot can. was in the same squad as shu xian, man ming and "form one de". i don't remember her name so call her that everytime i see her. yap zoe and her squad was there too so atleast we knew someone there. HAHA. first day only and my hand and leg started to ache. thats so sad. HAHA.

tuesday.

was suppose to be with pritasha, michelle and eugenna one. but then senior took me away amd put me in the same squad as carolyn. and when she say justina come to this squad you be leader i was like WHAT??! but i didn't say it out. and giving l.cpl shereena the question mark face. HAHA. but well its okay larh. no need to do much also just need to report back every hour from 8 to 12. my phone bill is like super high now can. HAHA. went to custom and my squad members are carolyn, meenuja, pavinjit and the form one girl which i don't even know at all. at custom is like so damn full with st johners from ec can. that rayson pang and choo jiale, fatty and un was there. well un said sorry. for i don't know what. HAHA. but i ask him he say for stealing your business. HAHA. rayson and jiale also the same. cause i didn't reply them. phone bill high ady larh mister. today not that tired larh cause stand at the same place only. kinda bored. then all of a sudden jamie and shu xian's squad came along. HAHA. so kinda happy abit. when we were going back to school the taxi we sat back to school was Free Of Charge! kinda surprise. cause when we were in the taxi i ask carolyn to ask how much. the taxi driver say no need to pay. i was like huh? really? he says yeah! really. i was like really?! he said yeah. you hive me the tabung larh. HAHA. i was like eh cannot. later senior scold me arh. then he say tell them kena curi larh. i say ohh. that even worse later they smack me. HAHA. atleast there are some people who pity us.

wednesday.

wore full uniform. and i look kinda wide in it. the principal gave us her oh so famous speech again. it took her like one hour later only she'll stop talking. don't know what award she won larh. her speech so long. if not for puan kang i think she wouldn't stop talking. ish. ish! sit till my butt made the floor so warm ady arh. cannot even stand up. cause butt aching. HAHA. and guess what we went to convent rendah!! and then to the town area. town area we walk from cs till near wisma maria. its like kinda far. amerlyn was kinda like our leader so all i have to do is report back only. my squad got meenuja, venilla and alysha tung. they all so quite can. HAHA. but meenuja and venilla like to play and talk larh. aiyo. HAHA.

thursday.

last day of my flagdays duty for this year ady. sad sad. HAHA. today was with christina, meenuja and a girl. don't know her name also. HAHA. sharvina i think. we went to uda. went to halili's house to collect donation. the people around her house gave quite alot. around 5 to 10 bucks. and i realised halili's house has a box of coins. i was kinda amazed at that cause it was like quarter of it were filled. very cool can. HAHA. and when we were walking across a road, me and christina walk ady. meenuja told sharvina don't die with a so calm face. me and christina burst out silent laugh. HAHA. it was funny larh. meenuja hates hamster cause it bite her. and when she saw christina's tortoise she told us it was the only animal she isn't afraid of. i almost fainted hearing that. HAHA. got pj today too!!! yay! (: encik amru didn't came so we pj-ed for one and a half hours. so happy. me, shangle, peiyee, lai, pang, huiru, shinie and yijin play till very happy and high. HAHA. took pictures with shea chee. (:

friday.

got netball today. tired and pain can. almost died. but i was a little too high. i laugh alone and talk alot. HAHA. i thought pang and huiru how to shoot know. HAHA. got back sejarah folio ady. and i got full marks. HAHA.

i need my sleep.

2009-07-12T16:33:00.002+08:00

ahh!!! this whole week i have to wake up so early in the morning every single day. well maybe not so early larh. is like around 6.15? but with homeworks and lots of tv watching i won't have enough sleep. most probably i'll be dozing off in sejarah class this wednesday. and oh! WTH! i forgot to tell teacher this tuesday i won't be going. oh man. who's gonna plan and help her? SHIT. i forgot bout it. well anyway i'll be going for flagday duty from tomorrow till thursday and i already guess that my leg will ache alot. and on friday IF there's netball i'll have to go also but IF i could i want to rest. saturday would be the only day i could rest and i need to STUDY!!! exams coming. busy busy man. surprisingly no one is pushing me to study. i'm not getting use to that. HAHA.

baby talk.

2009-07-11T12:35:00.002+08:00

last sunday went to pastor eunice house. victor brought his guitar along. he thought me how to play a few songs. and i kinda got a hang of it. just need more practice would be better. i was playing the guitar till so shuang then uncle danny suddenly ask me you want to learn the drum anot? i was silent for awhile. then he said cause our church no drummer already learn from jethro larh. i was like wow! learn from jet? just now he teach joshua i already blur dy cause he teach very fast. HAHA. will consider that too. when we're outside pastor eunice ask daniel where is joshua? daniel think awhile and look at her where? he say till so cute with his hands up and a can you tell me face was included. by the way, he's only two. me and brother was acting as if we were crying cause baby joshua very naughthy. HAHA. baby joshua look at us and he came to me and say hug! AWWW. so sweet. uncle danny was like HAHA joshua tak kesian you to my brother. when joshua and daniel were playing baby joshua suddenly came to me and say hug hug! i was like huh? for a second and he say hug hug again only i get it. so i hugged him. uncle danny told me that when joshua was in the car he saw the police.

joshua: mummy! police arh?

auntie sheryl: emm. later the police come catch mummy arh.

joshua: cannot. if police catch mummy i eat the police.

auntie sheryl: HAHA. the police so big joshua cannot eat the police larh.

joshua: lee korkor (my brother) eat police.

HAHA. he's so cute. when we're about to go home, i went to the car to play with joshua. because uncle danny stop to look at dad's car. cause something happen on the way to pastor eunice house. i was playing and talking to him then all of a sudden he say iloveyou! AWWW. SO CUTE! his mom is like aiyo. pengsan larh. joshua cannot simply say know. later all the girls faint arh. then he turned to sis and say iloveyou. HAHA.

so this explains to me even a kid who can't really talk properly or do anything on its own can make me happy. thinking of them just makes me smile. in this big world sometimes smiling really is hard. being a kid would be best. you don't have to think so much. thank you joshua, daniel. (:

2009-07-10T20:37:00.002+08:00

speechless is the word. i mean you're just a probation prefect don't have to scold people for accidentally banging into you right? i mean well she has a fault too. for not saying sorry larh. so sorry to michelle and yiling for what i've said. hope everything is fine. and to michelle philo. sometimes crapping less is better know when you're holding back people from going home but talking crap at the same time which will make people kinda pissed you know. and sorry for like somehow shout at you? okay. you get what i mean okay.

its sad when people you knew becomes people you don't know.

2009-07-04T12:13:00.002+08:00

there's something that i've been searching for a long time.

but at the same time i'm losing it faster than i imagine as time pass by.

just a simple question to the person up there.

WHY?!

2009-07-04T11:58:00.003+08:00

you're asking me what happen infront of you?

i told you.

but you sounded like you don't believe a damn thing i say.

what's the point of asking me if you don't choose to believe me?

you keep making it sound like its my fault.

come on, please larh.

if friends we can't be then what else can we be?

you want us to be enemies merh?

it's not that i don't appreciate you helping me but i think there is not a need to be so i don't know how to say it.

but we're friends.

if i don't talk to her or help her won't i lose a friend just like that?

so please think bout it for a second.

if you're me you know how i feel.

but too bad you ain't me.

drifting away from them is easy but not losing a friend.

i just don't get it.

i hope that you'll understand me now eventhough she's just a friend.

2009-07-04T11:35:00.006+08:00

monday.
watch transformers dy. (: yay! opps! by the way, somebody don't be jealous. HAHA.

thursday.
was in the canteen with sanjnaa and well alot of other people. sanjnaa was playing with andrea's guitar. and i said something that made me hate cats even more.

me: sanjnaa! the cat is waiting for you to serenade it. HAHA.
cat: *wink*
me: O.O OMG!! the cat wink at me.
everyone: huh? really?
me: yeah. its like so scary.
cat: *wink again*
pritasha: OMG! i saw it too. HAHA.
andrea: you like her is it? (to the cat)
cat: meow!
everyone: woah!! you got an admirer.
me: i'm so gonna hate cats from now on.

and there. now pritasha will call me kitty kitty. or else meow. what's with that man? perverted cat. HAHA.

friday.
was texting with edlyn and all of a sudden i told her i walk the talk and jump the thought. i don't know what it means actually. can someone tell me what this weirdo created please? puan selva ask us to do a horror story. well, yeah okay! me, shang le and wen jin did a horror story. yeah we did. that makes people laugh. our story is kinda lame. HAHA. lots of sound effect was added into it but was erased after that knowing teacher will skin us alive if we wrote that. HAHA. i'm kinda missing zoe. one whole week never see or talk to her is like so damn boring in class can. was listening to the radio and the dj was like did you know a lady called 999 and told the officer that her hamster escaped? i was like WTH! HAHA. but its kinda funny. moral of the story is never to call 999 if your hamster ran away. (:

2009-06-29T00:30:00.001+08:00

i'm just hoping that you'll be okay.
that's all that matters.
you don't have to tell me what happen if you don't want to.
but actually i didn't even ask.
to know that you're okay i'll be very happy already.
i'll cheer you up if i could and if you need it.
smile. [:

2009-06-27T20:39:00.003+08:00

sometimes you want it but you can't have it,
but when you don't want it you can have it.
so i rather don't want it so that i could have it.
but if you couldn't have it you will never get it.
so i guess its like that?

2009-06-26T22:54:00.002+08:00

sometimes knowing some things isn't good at all.

i mean if its a good thing then its good but if its not then it never will be good.

and i know things that you've said before.

i can't believe you actually said that.

why did i bother to believe you?

why did i bother to even do that?

seriously this is not a game.

i mean NOT! A game.

i don't know why you will say those thing.

why am i even thinking bout it?

it doesn't matter anymore already.

it hurt just knowing you take me so lightly.

i took you as my like no idea how to say. so whatever.

i'm done and over with.

2009-06-26T22:36:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,

ZOE!!

you're big and you're strong.

you love to fart don't you?

everyday keep telling us you wanna fart till me and yvonne have to evacuate.

but thats you and so we love you for being who you are. HAHA.

oh and i'm gonna be your apprentice weyh. HAHA.

I'm no longer 'peace off' with you ady. HAHA.

that joke bring me no effect ady. HAHA.

and i've memorise your ' wei? wo shi miki arh!' ady kay. HAHA.

and sorry for forgetting to check todays date.

again,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! (:

2009-06-26T20:47:00.006+08:00

tuesday.
maths and science again. did experiment. well maybe not. teacher pronounce floating as flirting. and i was blured for a moment thinking how can a paperclip flirt?!! i ask teacher and she say can. why cannot? i was like okay. show me how. HAHA. I saw you, you saw me. haha. you should see me longer so it will last through the whole time when i couldn't see you. i realised that i missed you. HAHA.

wednesday.
nothing special. but i saw you again! HAHA. i'm so happy after seeing you. no idea why. oh and zoe bacame model again. this time she jadi lawyer. wah! super nice can. she wear the uniform and came out i was like WOW! with my mouth open can. and when she started walking i just fainted and laugh. you should look at her walk. OMG! yvonne and fasihah don't talk your divorce so seriously. its just acting zoe will sort it out. HAHA. the pricipal say if you're noisy you're healthy. we shall make more noise then.

thursday.
got pj!! yay. (: i saw you again! HAHA. i was super duper high and happy after that. i pity shea chee. she have to take her temperature 5 times only she can get pass. haha. and me twice. before recess we took temperature again and mine was as high as 37.4. teacher was like if 37.5 then got beep beep sound ady you know. i was like err okay? HAHA. during pj the weather was damn hot man. as in very hot. phew!! my face was like so hot and pain. HAHA. but it wasn't red as i expected it was. so tired after that. i was walking back to class and at the corridor still quite far from class, i walk walk walk and all of a sudden i stop and sit down at the corridor. tired can. people behing is like whats wrong with you stopping in the middle of the road. HAHA.

friday.
went to school and its like so dead quiet. it was so scary can. HAHA. no idea why 2c people so rajin larh. only 7 people didn't turn up. when zoe saw me she's like keep looking at me and doing weird stuff and i was like figuring what was her message. and all of a sudden i remembered that it was her birthday. HAHA. i so slow larh. sorry zoe! and i enjoy laughing with zoe, madiha and diyanah. HAHA. funny larh. we keep laughing till ely is like justina whats wrong with you? HAHA. it always is me larh. she told cik intan that our class got new penyakit. and it is no idea what the name is. i think is G1L3. and she told teacher that thats the penyakit i'm having. HAHA. you orang buat say malu larh. HAHA. my image infront of teacher bye bye ady larh.HAHA. finally puan hasnah said something that makes me think that it made sense. she say if you don't feel like coming to school tomorrow, don't come. WOW! it made sense. HAHA.

2009-06-21T20:10:00.004+08:00

wednesday.
got all my marks and also position in class ady. like WOW!! i can't believe me and my lefty zoe weren't that far from each other. we're super sticky. HAHA. i mean our numbers of A'S are the same and our percentage are the same but i got higher marks than her in certain subjects. when i was signing the paper that has our marks on it cik intan went..

cik intan:woah!! somebody wor. number 3!!!

me:shh!!! teacher don't say larh.

cik intan:why?

me:malu larh. HAHA.

cik intan: alah! apa malu? WOAH!! number 3.!!!

me:=.= (head down and continue doing my things)

thursday.

we were geographying with puan salmiah in the class observing us. class is like normal still kinda noisy and in the joking mood. nobody really cares that she's in the class. all of a sudden teacher ask us we done our midterm exam's correction.

cik zahriah: dah siap pembetulan ujian pertengahan tahun ke tak?

me: HUH?!!(with my eyes open widely)

class: HUH?!(wanting to say belum but no one dares cause puan salmiah's there)

cik zahriah:(not saying anything and doing the please say yes nod and two wink from her eyes)

me:HUH?!!(wondering should i keep quiet or not?)

class:erm..er... oh!!! dah! sudah!

cik zahriah: eh!!! class ni. suruh jawab satu soalan ambil lama sangat untuk jawab.

okay. seriously that was very weird. HAHA. when she gave us the please say yes nod she was directly looking at me and it was seriously OMG! funny. HAHA.

friday.

i lately very guai man. i start to go friday classes and koko without complaining. thats like WOW! i don't believe it. HAHA. after friday classes my body started to ache man. OUCH! in class no idea how zoe's skirt got stuck at the chair. me and mae went over to help her. OMG! its like how in the world does she sit?!! when we were about to go back. we saw something which makes us laugh so much. ZOE!!! i'm so 'peace-off' with you larh.! HAHA.

saturday.

after koko followed shirlene back home. escaped youth today cause i'm kinda tired. on the phone with mum.

mum:so later going youth anot?

me:erm... i tired larh. can i escape today?

mum:(discuss with dad) okay larh. today you escape.

me:(silently yes!!)

mum:but later you must sleep you know.

me: okay.

told auntie ann bout it. and she's like okay later go back home tell your mum you slept for two hours arh. shirlene tambah four hours. faint larh. uncle si is like ah!! you see the house doctor say need to rest means need to rest. HAHA. he means he's the house doctor. HAHA. at night went to ahma's house celebrate father's day. we all laugh way too much larh. old young also laugh alot. leslie and jessica say cannot eat rice first later too full cannot eat dessert. what does that have to do with anything? i wonder. leslie is on a unbalance diet to grow fat. HAHA. there's this part where we were talking and everyone makes sense. and i went...

me:why do you all always makes sense arh?

evelyn and jessica:because we make sense.

me:oh. HAHA. why do you all always make sense and i don't?

everyone: HAHAHA. aiyo.

evelyn:(with her standard line) oh. because you're a bimbo.

okay. whatever. HAHA. but i have fun being with them because i feel comfortable around them. i could be myself around them.

i'm still PEACE OFF, ZOE!! HAHA.

2009-06-14T21:41:00.001+08:00

i'm totally lost. don't know why. i'll listen to big kor kor anyway. HAHAHA.

2009-06-13T13:43:00.003+08:00

HAHAHA. i just annoyed my sis again. HAHA. didn't did that for a very long time ady ever since i started schooling in the afternoon session. how i annoy her?! hmm. like normal with my bad singing and also talking way tooooo much. HAHA. but i feel that this is more like me than the one which is always quiet at home. i feel much more alive and happier having lots of fun like this. HAHA. i mean laughing alone, talking or scolding the tv and annoying my sis with my bad singing. HAHA.

2009-06-12T20:16:00.002+08:00

happy birthday to shirlene si yen ling!!!

you're one year older and please don't use blackie to bully me again. HAHAHA.

again HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY. (: stay happy always.

2009-06-12T19:10:00.004+08:00

since you wanted to let go i've no other choice but to let go also. i don't want to let go but i have to let go. for me to move on. for you to be happy. for us to be friends. for them to stop worrying bout you. to stop the flooding fountain. which already stopped. to be who i am again. a cheerful me. i love you but i can't love you. i miss you but i can't miss you. its hard. so i'm throwing it all away from today onwards. to move on and be who i am.

2009-06-12T17:57:00.003+08:00

have lots to say. but i don't know where to begin. so maybe next time? and actually now i'm in a mess and so i don't know what to say. am i making sense here? i shall start my mission by saying sorry to some people. actually is not some is 8 of them. HAHA. okay. i'll start next week on my own. and please stop talking to myself at home!! it ain't bringing you any where better at all. so stop it before someone catch you doing that and say you're crazy. well mum already said i was crazy laughing alone without anything amusing me. so WOW!! what should i do now?! thanks to boredom i'm suffering and neither do i want to disturb anyone anymore for the time being. still planning my mission. HAHAHA. yesterday is so long gone. sometimes there's nothing left but to believe. but i'll still be hanging onto JESUS! (: i wasn't doing that for like the past few months cause of something. and i'm sorry.

2009-06-12T17:42:00.001+08:00

where are you when i need you?

i seriously need to ask you something.

since you've been telling me lots of good things since i don't know when.

now only you i can turn to ady. no one else can help me.

be available soon kay.

2009-06-11T12:26:00.004+08:00

if i let you go will you be happy?

if i let you go will everything be alright?

if i let you go will you say yes we should?

if i let you go will you still be hurt?

if i let you go will you be free?

if i let you go will i forget you?

if i let you go what will i do?

if i let you go will i be happy?

if i let you go will i still love you?

if i let you go will we still be friends?

if i let you go can i let you go?

if i let you go i want you to be happy.

if i let you go i want you to never ever get hurt.

if i let you go i want you to be cheerful.

if i let you go i want you to never cry.

if i let you go i want you to still be my friend.

if i let you go i wonder what i should do.

I DON'T WANT TO LET YOU GO!!!

2009-06-10T22:19:00.001+08:00

you're still my number one!! (:

2009-06-10T21:24:00.006+08:00

i seriously forgotten to blog bout someone very important later he kill me arh.

HAHAHA.

okay. here goes. joseph kor kor is the name. you don't so happy hear me call you that lerh. HAHA. thank you for the chocolates you bought give us. i really really like it. especially the bear chocolate you specially buy for me and my sis.

super cute can. HAHA. oh and that time i told you something and you told me that there is always one friend that i could trust that is you. yeah. i agree. thank you. you've seen me grow up so i guess you know what i'm saying. (:

oh and take care of your health.

cough for one month still haven't okay go see a doctor larh. HAHA.

what a nice hair i must say. HAHA.

the left one is mine.

black and milk chocolate. (:

2009-06-10T21:12:00.001+08:00

it will be fine.

it will still be the same.

don't worry too much.

i'll do something bout it.

there sure is a way.

don't worry.

smile. (:

don't sad sad ya.

smile like you mean it. (:

i'll wait for it.

2009-06-10T20:50:00.003+08:00

ish.. ish.. ish...

i don't wanna be your target larh.

go find somebody else please.

i don't know you, you also don't know me.

so i shall run away from you.

HAHA.

and sorry i can't find you cause i won't. HAHA.

OH MAN!!! i'm gonna run.

RUN JUSTINA RUN! DON'T EVER LOOK BACK!

HAHA.

obviously, i don't even know you. So long somebody. HAHA.

only you know what i'm talking about no one else. HAHA.

sorry for running. HEE. (:

and don't hello, hello me again kay.

i won't know what to say so i'm not picking up the phone.

2009-06-10T20:46:00.001+08:00

HAHAHA. goosebump come out again larh. HOW?!

i thought i didn't have to look at those again.

HAHAHAHA.

i'm crapping again.

THANK YOU.

2009-06-09T16:43:00.003+08:00

thank you so very much for everything. what you say sounded so great. HAHA. i feel that you mean everything you said last night and that makes me happy. (: HAHA. you big bear hug was super warm. it made me warm till my sweat came out through my eyes. HAHA. you're so sweet and nice. i seriously had a super happy and fun chat with you. i went to the right person to cheer me up. HAHA. i hope i don't fall so that i won't embarrass myself infront of you again. but you would catch me if i fall right? HAHA. i'll think of you 24 hours and 7 days a week. don't worry. i'll dream about you even if i have to. HAHA. and yes you've been sweet since the starting only i didn't want to admit it. incase you kembang again. but you won so many sumo championships dy. the next one will be mine ya. i want to give a speech. HAHA. in our world there's no sorrows and tears but fun and laughter. and i can throw all my sadness away in our world because there is no secret between us. HAHA. and yes. super duper good friend. believe it or not but its true. HAHA. i'll create as many sweet memories for you and i'll give it to you as a gift. so treasure me well and i'll give it to you. HAHA. i've also been sweet since the very beginning only you didn't know bout it. HEE. (: i'm made out of sugar spice and everything nice so that explains everything right? HAHA. laugh more kay. so that you can get six packs for your mouth and then you can win the guinness world records award and i can hear your speech. HAHA. and all the funny names we created just now must remember know so that you can laugh alot. AWW... so sweet larh you. i happy you also happy i okay you also okay. cute can. HAHA. i seriously don't know what i will do without you. THANK YOU so much. i love you so very banyak banyak. i'll be meeting you in my dream tonight. HAHA. OH! and i won't cry anymore for your sake. (:

2009-06-08T15:54:00.000+08:00

why whenever i think of you it is always the same scene of you walking away?

2009-06-08T12:11:00.009+08:00

finally. i'm home. got so sick last night. no idea why. went to toilet and vomitted. gosh! so xin ku can. felt so weak and i walk like orang mabuk. HAHA. okay whatever. i shall blog bout my trip to kl and church camp in pahang.

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went up to kl quite late. reach there around no idea what time. went to mines for dinner and back. did nothing actually.

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mummy and daddy went for checkup. uncle hoe came and fetch us from the hotel to his house to see baby suyen. HAHA. she so super cute. i spend the whole day at there. she smiled at me. hee. (: played with her when she was awake. when she sleep i tried to sleep but she wake up afew minutes later. HAHA. when she awake she like to cry for milk. i'll be like milk again??! but what do you expect from a 3 months old baby other than milk. haha. she very cute can. other people suck their thumbs. but she special she lick both her hands. haha.

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leaving for pahang. delia's with us. with delia around its never boring. but all of us ended up sleeping so soundly. it takes us four plusplus hour to reach summerset resort in pahang from kl. guess what, the moment i get up from sitting in the car my butt got numb. WOW! pain can. haha. service was erm.. great. but cause of my tiredness i can't really concentrate. bro simon locke is a funny guy. HAHA. he joke quite alot. throughout the service, people near me can hear me say my butt pain lots of times. HAHA. xiao yen went for church camp. after service we waited for the musician to finish their practice and we headed up to victor and jethro's suite. no idea how they got a suite. HAHA. we ate and ate and laugh alot. joseph gave me and jessica chocolates. very cute larh. HAHA. he bought two more boxes for the rest of us. all the junk food he bought for us de. so good right? HAHA. we watch ghost rider till like two in the morning? the show damn lame can. OMG! haha. joseph as usual told us jokes which we can't stop laughing. HAHA. we slept at around 2.3o am.

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i almost slept in service today. HAHA. we slept so late and woke up so early not enough sleep larh. HAHA. all of us did a personality test today. i'm a popular sanguin. bro simon locke say sanguin's needs alot of attention. HAHA. yeah. i guess its true. HAHA. in the afternoon, baby joshua wanted to go for swimming. he went to his mummy, "mummy arh, swimming pool?" his mum replied "go find your daddy" he ran to his dad and asked the same thing and his dad ask him to ask his mummy. he went and ask his mummy and his mummy ask him to ask his dad again. kesian him. the last time he ask his mum he ady angry. his mum was like okayokay. we go swimming. HAHA. we teman joshua for awhile then when his daddy came we went to the beach. so fun can. HAHA. we all play till so mad. me and victor played volleyball with his football ball and the rest of the youth saw us playing they joined. we play and play till we ended up playing monkey. uncle sam saw us he joined us also. still young can. HAHA. uncle andrew joined us also. we play until so shuang. uncle andrew teach us how to play his childhood game which is kinda fun and tiring. HAHA. we play till so long. my face was red after that. HAHA. the beach got starfish lerh. HAHA. I found alot and put it back into the sea. i heard there is also jellyfish. HAHA. at night during service we were like half awake half asleep. bro simon's son, jarred sang the song 'when you say you love me' so nice can. he sounded like josh groban can. HAHA. beatrice was saying WOW! and rachel went yeah i know! my heart melted. i was like blured out for a second cause she said it so loud. HAHA. delia asked my dad to take flower. she went infront and gave the flower to jarred and she ran back. to think delia's kind of character also will paiseh de. HAHA. after service we waited for the musician again. me and beatrice went to joseph's room while waiting for victor to finish talking to bro simon. when i first entered the room i was like whose bonster is that? why is it flower? beatrice say first look and you know its not joseph's. i was like chris!! why is it flower? even your blanket! HAHHA. jessica came and saundra brought her luggage along. and joseph was like ...!? they explain and joseph was like ohh! i thought what is this girl doing in my room with her luggage. am i suppose to sleep on the floor or something? HAHHA. we went to vic's room around 12 plus we went in jarred was already there and saundra went "i thought you were still putting kendra to sleep?" HAHA. we talk and eat till like so early in the morning. oh man! two of my most embarrassing moment was revealed. and everyone laughed. so memalukan can. HAHA. jarred told us lots of things. and about working in a restaurant and a guy ordered calamari. when jarred served the calamari,

customer: what's this?

jarred:calamari.

customer:no i ordered a calamari and not fried sotong!

jarred:err... its calamari, sir.

customer:no! its sotong.

jarred:what do you think calamari means? a kind of japanese fish?

customer:YEAH!

jarred: oh. okay. (calls his boss)

boss:in the dictionery squid is sotong. and sotong is calamari in america.

customer: erm. leave it here.

HAHAHA. the joke is funny when jarred say it himself. after all its a real story. HAHA. we talk till like four plus in the morning. joel and afew of the youth went to the beach and waited for sunrise. we were suppose to stay up also but we ended up going back to sleep. HAHA. i slept at 4.30 am.

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last day of church camp. tired and still laughing. HAHA. i saw joy tong. everything went well. during thanksgiving everyone was super high can. especially the older ones. HAHA. during lunch we all youth sat together with jarred and saundra. we talk and talk alot like usual. jarred say i very ulu. HAHA. cause it was seriously very hot and i stand under the aircon and say wow! got aircon. HAHA. we went to taman negeri endau rompin after that. baby joshua played in the waterfall. and he is like ohh! so cold. HAHA.

2009-06-02T12:41:00.002+08:00

prinscy's leaving for negeri sembilan today!! ahh!! don't go. i wish you could actually make a decision of your own. haih. but i should be happy for you instead of being sad right? i should seriously think that you're going to do something better and i should be happy for you. thank you to you know yourself, who said this to me on friday. atleast it made me think another way. haih. prinscy, wish you all the best and take care kay. remember us always and come visit us sometimes. even if you have to walk from negeri sembilan to jb i don't care just come back for us. HAHA. take care. i love you friend!! and i started to miss you ady. your teases will be stuck in my head like forever kay. HAHA. bye bye princess of the united states of america. be happy always (:

2009-06-02T12:32:00.001+08:00

i totally give up on you!!!

2009-06-02T12:18:00.001+08:00

you've made me the victim so shut your mouth!!!

can't take it anymore.

2009-06-02T12:00:00.002+08:00

going insane is the word for me. somebody help! there's so much to do. science peka, kh kerja kursus, sejarah folio and geography folio. i'm gonna faint real soon. sleeping at one everyday trying to finish it. but i find one o'clock still early. shall try to do till even later. atleast i get to enjoy afew more days. its holiday! thank you for spoiling my holiday. teacher, how am i suppose to pluck coconut leaf? seriously i need to climb. HAHA. nevermind. i find the shortest tree for me to pluck. princess of the united states of america, where are you? hope you're doing fine. and hopefully you go to jerussalem and not zion. HAHA.

2009-06-02T11:33:00.003+08:00

haih. i realised something. i've been neglecting you ever since i heard something bout you. which i didn't believe was true. but i was afraid it was true. i seriously feel super bad bout it. i try to talk to you but its like i don't know what to say. HAHA. but once we started talking all craps will eventually come out larh. so just call your name and there you go we started crapping. HAHA. sorry for neglecting you so very much. you don't know its you or maybe you know. i don't know. but if you know, so very sorry ya. i'll smile. (:

2009-05-30T13:15:00.002+08:00

haih.

i didn't want to say no.

its because i was afraid i will hurt you and you might go again.

i don't want you to go.

it hurts.

i wonder when will you ever be back.

will you be gone forever?

don't go. come back.

i need you. why leave just like that?

do i still have reason to smile?

in front of you i'll be happy.

2009-05-30T12:45:00.003+08:00

today i woke up feeling that i was in heaven.

it was so cold and the room was so bright.

feeling so peaceful. but my heartaches.

because of you.

i had a stupid dream because of you.

i dreamt that i was on top of the tallest building in america wanting to jump down.

haih. a mixture of you and prinscy. HAHA.

i'm feeling so sad and i can't think of anything.

i slept at 2am and woke up at 8am.

cause i was thinking alot and i couldn't sleep. when i woke up there's tears.

how sad can it be some more.

i couldn't get to explain things to you yesterday because i wasn't in the mood and i'm not okay.

so i've decided to explain everything ady.

i've waited for your exam to be over so that i could talk to you and laugh and always feel that there is a reason for me to smile.

i study so hard for you till i was half dead begging for an a from teacher.

but guess it all kind off still dissapoint you. haih.

SORRY!

2009-05-30T01:18:00.002+08:00

the old me just died.

thank you.

2009-05-30T00:16:00.005+08:00

hmm. thank you for everything. i appreciate it so very much. thats the best thing that could happen to me. trusting you was the right choice. i know who you are. super BMW go tell her those thing for what? is so none of your business. i should have known. wah! everything also you go tell. i wonder your definition of secret is what. wonder what do you learn in school. but whatever. i know who to trust and who not to trust. i still have other people who care bout me. to think you were actually someone i cared about. pfft! so damn regret can. kiss my ass larh you. why must prinscy be the one going not you? you go ady i will jump up and down non stop lorh. by then i can smile arh. slap you only you know arh. betray people till so damn what lorh you. now i know in the world no one could be trusted. now i know why you all are so cold ady. you think without you all i can't live is it? wait long long larh. you all die dy i haven't kay. i still have other people. they will protect me i know. they will be there for sure. not like you. act so innocent but behind me i don't know what kind of person you are. maybe a two faced beast i don't know. i almost died of heart attack arh. but i was strong not to die so early. i think its not worth getting angry or crying over you. but maybe i draw a you and step on it better arh. atleast i will shuang abit. you got me into depression you fanana women. you both hurt me equally much. ISH! so thank you so very much for that. it felt just great. two human being of different kind actually ganged up to hurt me. WOW! isn't it just great? how i wish i could take mud and put on your face arh. make it smoother by alot. i wish you would go through what i'm going into. see what you feel bout it. what a dissapointment. you jealous of something is it? i don't get you larh. get your innocent face out of my sight larh. seeing you makes me want to puke. 'no she won't de larh. she won't de.' WOW! how much faker can you be? too bad i can't get myself to be angry with you or hate you. i have no idea why. you're officially MOB! mother of all betrayer. i wish i can rip off your mouth arh. no mouth insurance too bad larh. you deserved it. JUST SHUT UP! i need time to mend my little fragile heart which broke into million of small pieces thanks to you all.